I understand the icky voice. I make jewelry as a hobby and everyone wonders why I don’t sell it. They dont understand how I can spend time and money on it and just let it sit there. But it’s my creative outlet. I enjoy it, and if I were to make it for any other reason, I know I’d get stressed out. over deadlines, orders and I would hit a creative block.

So….buy that camera! For YOU!

I read quite a few of your posts. I have a family member who is a Reiki Master. I print her papers and certificates for the classes she teaches. She had a degree in metaphysics as well. I grew up in that environment. I’m definitely not phychic but have had a few “interesting experiences.”

I’m glad museditions sent you to my site! Your jewlery is just beautiful!

Are you a member at the Starving Jewelry Artist Forum? It’s a very positive place. There is a link at my site if you want to check it out.

Take Care

There IS a reason. I enjoy it. It’s my creative outlet. I decided not to sell it for that reason alone. Deadlines, orders and creating for someone else would take the enjoyment away.

I might sell it years from now, but it is what keeps me happy. So buy that camera….just because!

By the way your jewelry is so beautiful!

I read quite a few posts here. We seem to have a lot in common. A family member of mine is a Reiki Master, I print out all her courses and certificates for her classes too. She has a degree in metaphysics. I grew up in that environtment. I’m definately not phychic but had a few “interesting experiences.”

I’m glad museditions sent you over
I’m a member of the Starving Jewelry Artists forum, the link is on my page, it’s a really postive environment. If you haven’t been there before, you should check it out.

Now that I’ve written a novel on your page, I’ll be off
Take Care

Bia: I’m sure that waiting for a job acceptance is very frustrating. I know you will end up being successful! In the meantime I certainly recommend getting out of the house. Even if all you do is walk down the block and back, or around the block, changing your view and moving a bit can really help. Although, I know from personal experience that it can be almost impossible to drag yourself through the door. As for the creativity you remember from childhood why can’t you do some of those things? Several years ago when I was in a similar creative slump I bought some child’s markers and paper and gave myself permission to draw the kind of bright, simple drawings I did when I was a child. I knew I was the only one who would ever see those drawings so I just let myself go. It was very therapeutic! Maybe we should both try this!

Madison: You are so right about several things. The sun is definitely healing! I know I need more of it. And giving myself permission to make “ugly” jewelry that I can take apart is a good suggestion. My husband is always telling me that one of the reasons he likes the idea of beading is that you can always take it apart and make something else. But, I’ve always resisted this. I think I get hung up on the idea of “wasting” materials like stringing wire and crimp beads. I guess I just need to get over myself! Thanks for the suggestion! And I will get the camera; I just have to finish saving up the money.

Muse: Yes, it does seem like there is “something in the air,” doesn’t it? I’ve had conversations with several friends who are also crabby, uninspired, and having a generally rotten time lately. For awhile I was putting it down to Mercury retrograde, but that’s now long past. Regardless of the source of the “bleh” it seems terribly important to keep fighting back. And I do. I’m just too damn stubborn to give in completely! I would never actually get rid of my beads, but it is a good indicator of how low I’ve been that I would even have the thought. I appreciate the link to the fellow beader! I enjoyed her site and have found several others through her. I’ve been thinking for awhile about starting another blog just for beading and art. I’m even more inspired now, thanks!

Phew…it’s such a relief to know that someone out there, someone unknown, someone far away in another part of the world, unrelated is going through something similar to my current ordeal.

Your blog headline attracted me to read on and boy am I glad I did.

Honestly, I feel as if all my creativity has disappeared without trace and that I am reduced to being a young woman, at home alone, waiting for a job acceptance, cooking, cleaning and maintaining the household. And if I ain’t doing the above i am sulking about what my life is reduced to, what I have been reduced to..a fat ugly non ambitious young person who has a lot of potential.

As a kid I remember playing with my dolls, making little dresses, drawing, painting and cycling around. Surely I cant do any of that again now, could I? my metropolitan city life doesnt permit any of this. Moreover I am looked down upon being without a job

Gosh, I wish I had your will to decide to get out of the house and do somethng everyday….to get out of this horrible situation….really frustration kills.

But, thank you for making me realise I need to get out.I just have to.

Cheers.